Wednesday, August 12, 2020
O Lord, I Believe; Help My Unbelief! A Prayer
O Lord, I believe;
Or should that be “we”?
Or is it only me?
Then again, I can name more than a few who wouldn’t
disagree with “we”.
even though you tell us
not to fear,
not to be afraid,
not to be anxious or worried but to be
we do fear,
we are afraid,
we are anxious and worried and have little or
(we just can’t help it).
Will she get the virus?
And me, will I get it?
our best friend;
anxiety and worry
our constant companions,
some worrying if they can pay their bills,
some worrying if they can afford food,
some worrying about their children returning to school,
some anxious about their jobs,
some anxious about
Some days I wonder.
But then the reality again,
a reality too real to be anything but real.
no peace down deep inside,
at least, not for me
(or is “me” another “we”?).
Trying to sleep,
guarding the gate to my mind;
patrolling the perimeter of my brain;
set in place surveying the scene inside my head;
intruders from intruding,
invaders from invading,
interlopers from interloping,
but to no avail,
stealthy thoughts stealing in;
but no matter,
my mind a minefield,
buried images and memories and feelings and
fears and worries and anxieties
a stray thought straying,
setting them off.
O Lord, we believe;
Help us to
believe enough to
believe that even if we let go of you,
never let go of us,
that you will respond to us,
even if all we come to you with
believe that like a parent holding a child in a storm,
you hold us
and your love will calm our fears
like a parent’s love
calms a child’s fears,
that in your arms
we are secure;
believe that you are our shield and our strength,
against all that causes us to be afraid,
against all that seeks to undo us,
against all that threatens;
believe that you are our rock,
the only solid ground
in a culture built on sand and
so easily swept away,
to build our lives on you
is to have a confidence like no other,
that nothing can finally sweep us away
believe that you are with us,
in all things
working your purpose,
seeing us through,
all things possible in your presence and power –
And, Lord, while you’re at it, keep reminding us of all
the good people
doing good things
for the good of so many –
donating food, packing food, delivering food,
offering emotional, financial, spiritual
good people giving of themselves in so many ways.
it really helps with that unbelief business,
that there are good people,
that we ourselves can be good and kind people,
that there is hope.
And, Lord, remind us of something else because
for months now
it’s been numbers, numbers, numbers,
but the virus
old and young alike,
and it can be deadly,
and it has been deadly,
especially to older, at risk people who know that
if they get it, they’re gone.
remind us of the people and to pray for
the people who have the virus
the people who care for them,
the people who are dying,
the people who mourn,
the people working on developing a vaccine.
Heal them! Sustain them! Comfort them! Console them! Guide them!
And remind us always
to pray for our nation,
that we come together, work together, build a more
And, Lord, one last thing: laughter.
Grace our days
even when, especially when,
there seems to be little to laugh about,
not the mean laughter that laughs at someone else,
but the lovely laughter that laughs away,
just for a moment,
fear and worry and anxiety,
and just for a moment,
not so afraid,
the laughter of unbelief becoming belief.